My Crossdressing Habit

I am now 30yrs old man, I have the habit of dressing in a female dress,enjoy my female appearance, then masturbate finally.
It all started, when I was around 6-7yrs, I started wearing panties of my elder without the knowledge of my family members. It all started just like that, there is now reason why I wanted to wear panties rather than underwears of mine.I somehow managed to steal my sister’s panties or even neighbour girls’ panties for wearing, I used to wear to school also. This habit continued, and I started wearing frocks of my sister’s also when I was all alone in the house, put bangles, make-up with bindies & lipsticks also, if I find.Slowly this habit still got a promotion as when I was around 11-12 yrs old, I got tempted to wear bra. I felt that my breasts are growing, so I should cover it, I had seen ladies wearing bras,I stole one of my sister’s bra to wear.Then this continued stealing my sister’s or mother’s or sometimes my neighbour’s bras or panties or females’ dresses and wear and I was alone in the house. I was not satisfied even by this,I wanted to show to someone that I want wearing bras or panties or dresses, so I started walking on the balconies at late nights wearing my female get-ups, or even at dark streets.Later I started wearing bras & panties permanently even to school or wherever I go out, but without the knowledge of others. This was also not sufficient to me, I felt could be a complete woman only when I wear complete dress of female, so I started wearing saree, petticoat, blouse along with bra & panty.I somehow managed
to get my sister’s blouse as it fits better. One day when I alone in the house, I was dressing in my female dresses, suddenly my sister entered the house surprising to see me struggling to put the bra hooks, I was just shivering that all my secrets of make-uping as a female is disclosed.But my sister responded very cooly, she just smiled and asked me,should she help me, I stood still without uttering anything, she just came close to me, hooked the bras hooks, then she took one of her blouse & petticoat, asked me
to wear and helped me to wear the saree properly.After this she walked away. Later on,I thought now at least I could wear her dresses freely without any hesitations, even I used wear expose to her that I am in female dress,She responded normally and helped me use her make-up articles.This made me more confident for wearing a female dresses, She even stitched blouses to fit, bought some bras & panties of my size, even petticoats & sarees.She insisted me to shave beard, hairs on body, legs & arms.She also purchased some latex breasts to enchance my breast appearance.All this continued until my sister is married and went to her in-laws house, now I am alone nobody to help me to make-up as a female,but somehow managed to wear female dresses without the knowledge of my parents and this habit continued. Now I am working, earning sufficiently, managed to purchase all the articles & clothes for my female make-up continuing the habit.Now even my females collegues know that I wear bras to office, but I never cared for that, instead I invited few of my female collegues to my house, when they came I make-uped as a female wearing saree, and exposed to them that I look as they are. My collegues instead of shocked or surprised they took photographs with my female get-up in full dress & also in semi-nude dress, i.e,undressing piece by piece, finally nude.
I now still have this habit & never felt guilt of my habit, I know what I am doing, & before marriage I want to disclose with my would-be wife also.